Derek Jensen

Interface addict & an ENFP

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PORN: The most destructive yet satisfying act ever performed

I’ve never admitted something like this before in this way…

I’ve watched porn.

I’ve been addicted to it. I’m not proud to admit this. During, I feel satisfied. After, I feel relaxed. The next day I don’t feel myself. It’s a horrible curse, that I’ve allowed to spread onto other areas in my life. Porn is the most destructive addiction.

I’ve made many mistakes in my life just like many of us have. Almost to the point where I’ve wondered how and if things will ever get better. Sure, I’m thankful for what I’m fortunate to have: good friends, a supportive family, and a job. But, I’ve allowed myself to feel satisfied through porn. It’s bad.

And aside from all the ass and boobs I even allowed myself to be addicted to all kinds of porn. No, NOT like categories of porn. I’m talking about other addictions that feel like porn.

You see in 2008 I had a lot going on. It was my freshman year in...

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Deliberately constraining

Feels good to be blogging again. I honestly don’t remember the last thing I blogged about on a personal level. Well, here we go… again.

2014 started off immediately with me making a decision to pay $170 more a month for rent. I roughly make $1600 a month right now and prior to this decision I was paying $430 a month in an apartment with two of my coworkers. Do the very simple math and I elected to pay $600 now for a townhome with just one of my coworkers and greatest mentors in my life.

Subtracting the $700 with utilities a month from the total $1600 doesn’t sound too constraining, right? I mean having $900 left for any other expenses or savings isn’t too bad.

Well, I have other expenses. Duh (laughing).

I needed a new car. Went for a 2014 Mazda Mazda6 (zoom zoom) at $260 per month lease. Then I have these things called student loans that total to be another $260 per month. And...

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